Our truck (Affectionately named Reece Jiffy b/c it looks like a Reece's pb cup
and so I can say "We'll be there in a JIFFY" ) Has been STOLEN.

It was taken right out from under our noses yesterday morning.
None of the impound lots or the cops know where it it, either..

It wasn't even our truck! We were borrowing Ban's step-father's truck..

I know it's not our fault...but it just feels like it is...or rather..that it's my fault.

I hope Reece turns up, and in one piece. (haha- get it? Reece?..piece?)
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In celebration of Thanksgiving, I wish to dedicate this journal-entry
to all of those whom I love, whom love and support me, and to the folks at Modcloth
for their wonderful contest! [link]


It was when I had just reached 10 years old that my father
left our world in a most horrific manner,
and left the rest of my family broken into pieces..
Afterward, a man tried to replace him for several years,
but only succeeded in breaking us apart even further..
You see, my father had suffered from mental illness and,
by this point, I was already exhibiting symptoms of having inherited his illness.
Of course, my family did not wish to see the similarities as, you can imagine,
it was too painful to think about..
Non-the-less, I caused much dismay amongst them as it was perceived that I
brought shame upon our family by behaving unusually abnormal.

Once I discovered the truth behind my father's death,
in that it was suicide and not accidental, emotions flooded
my mind and my senses became clouded with fear and anxiety.
Yet my family still ignored the signs and ran from our past,
denying the pain that haunted our dreams and reality.

It was around this time that I met a boy..
He was a very awkwardly silent boy who towered above our classmates,
stood face to face with our elders, and offered shelter from the ruthless
emotional bombardment that I endured.
Yet even with his gentle and quiet nature, he saw through the irregularities
and prejudices of our authority and refused to allow himself to be abused.
He was seen as a rebel and a threat, despite his passivity,
because he would not allow people to mistreat himself or his loved ones..
I took comfort in this and drew strength from his courage.

Regardless, the abuse and pain in my household was still very prevalent
and increased because of my newly adopted rebellious attitude.
I had become so tired...so exhausted of thinking, of wondering what could have been,
why I was, and why everything about me was thought to be so wrong..
Why couldn't I be normal? Happy? Why did my step-father say the things he did?
Why did he hurt us so? Why did my father leave us.............

One day I tried to end my life..tried to end the pain....
That boy was there to stop me.
He saved my life by literally pulling me from the brink of oblivion.
That same boy is now a man, and has been saving my life everyday since that day.

I have an illness but he sees me as a person and not as a disorder, a victim, or a statistic.
He believes me to be strong and determined, but he doesn't understand that it
is him (and always has been him) that gives me that strength to keep moving.

I love him from the depths of my heart, and I am so very very thankful
for every waking moment I am allowed to share my life with him.

I love you Brandon.


I also love each and every one of my friends and those who support me in any fashion.
Thank you all so much for the s, es, donations, and commissions!


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Happy very belated Halloween and Dia de los Muertos!

I have Ms. 's painting finished and it's just awaiting to be mailed..
That might take another week until Ban gets paid again since I made the painting
larger than I originally planned to...but it is finished.
I should have pictures of it up before it is even sent out so you all can see
how awkward I apparently am at painting on paper


I have made one pair of the two pairs of earrings I owe
which are these hyar>>
The other pair are about half done. I should work on those tonight, I should.


I have officially started on 's Rikki-Ham-Demon commission
and it is coming along quite.....horrifyingly
Also, I must admit this to you now...
It really does not look that much like Rikki.
Mr. A's interpretation is much MUCH closer to the story than mine..
Mine is more of just what popped into my head and my hand decided to draw..
which turns out to be pretty horrifying. So hopefully you will be pleased.

Here's Mr. A's interpretation, If you're interested in what the hell I am talking about: [link]
Pretty epic.


Haven't started on 's commission yet b/c I am just that lame-o-matic.
I will get started on yours after I finish EmeraldWolf77's and Alphatroll's commissions, I will!


I STILL owe my sister a painting...but it will have to wait until I do
some other smaller commissions b/c I have very little room to paint here in my apartment
and that will be a project that I will have to dedicate at least 2 solid weeks into it..


Again, I want to thank everyone that donated thus far-
and also thank everyone that has faith enough in my abilities to commission me.


We are still (almost always) struggling with money,
as I have an illness that causes me not to be able to hold a job..

SOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~

Donations and/or Commissions are very welcome!!
<<Help make this sad panda a happy panda!
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I want to thank those that have donated, so far..
and sine you have donated, that means I owe you stuffs!

on the list:

1. My sister (owe her a painting)
2. (owe you some earrings)
3. (owe you a painting)
4. (wants me to do a sketch)
5. (wants me to do a sketch)

Thank you for the donations and commissions!!

Obviously we are far from out of the water, but the money is very much appreciated.
Donations and/or Commissions are very welcome!!
<<Help make this sad panda a happy panda!
Go here to donate>>>>[link]

I am going to be applying for SSI/ disability soon.
I've been hardcore putting it off for some reason...I think it's my pride.
but the way I see it is there's no reason why I should feel ashamed or anything
from needing assistance..everyone does from time to time.
I just need a hand in getting my life on track.



Speaking of which, TODAY IS WORLD MENTAL-HEALTH DAY!!!!

I'd like to do some art for it, but I'm pretty swamped with work already..
So, instead- here I present you all with my DACHATROOM!!! DUH-DUH-DUH! [link] "BreaktheSTIGMA"

It's new so it might take a little while for people to start visiting regularly,
but I will be on there as much as possible, so if you're having a hard time with life,
your mental illness, or just want someone to talk to- Stop by!
I'll be on a lot today..(Taking a short break from being on right now, but I shall return!)
but if you can't drop in, I hope you make it a point to talk to people about Mental-Health today!
Please visit the , as well!

Take care of yourselves, and thank you all for the s, s, and support!



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Looks like we've gotten pretty desperate for money lately,
what with my mental and physical health keeping me from holding/getting a job
and Ban not being able to find a decent paying job in this region..
Combined with no medical insurance and our land-lord upping rent?
Yea, times are pretty tough, indeed.

So it has come to us needing to start selling things..
I'm starting with my Bratz World! Collector's Edition: Tiana doll..

She was a Target Exclusive, and is now discontinued..so she's very rare!
I have her up on e-bay if you'd like to take a look! >>[link]

I'm really sad to have to sell her...
she was a birthday present..but we really do need the money.
I'm hoping Someone who loves dolls as much as I do, or more,
will buy it and take good care of it.


I have also decided to break down and ask everyone for donations..
I will send a sketch or a small painting on paper to those who donate $10+
keep in mind, the donation amount required to afford shipping might
vary depending on you location (i.e. outside of the U.S.)
We'll figure that out together, and then we can talk about
what you might want me to sketch/paint.

Either way, ANY amount is great!
I think paypal may take out $.50 or something...so please..at least a dollar

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Please go here >>>>[link] to my LiveJournal to donate!
Let me know if you donated so's I can thank you and perhaps work out art-ness!

I love you all!

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